Kenneth

Whee!

2009-05-21T00:58:00.005+08:00

was kinda emo, looking around my com.
suddenly notice something never open for very long.
decided to open it once again, dono its a mistake or not.
well anyway, open jiu open le. bring backs memories.
for some reason, i shall not post everything,
reasons like, there are 100 pics? and she got bf le,
not nice to post some pic, so post those okay one.
glad i was once with you before. Xiao Mei JUNE! =D

Sweet dreams over.

2009-05-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

i still love you girl.
guess maybe it came to an end.
even if i can go back in time,
i still be glad to know you.
still will be loving you.

zzZ

2009-05-03T13:16:00.002+08:00

i just realise, i so long never blog le! so should blog today.
starting off, i still feel like sleeping even thou i just woke up.
Tired sia. Laopo say me Pig T.T but heck la. i love sleeping!
i love Laopo too. =p actually there's nothing much to blog about.
except that attachment sux. xD Life is great! looking forward to seeing you.

some people.

2009-04-17T20:51:00.001+08:00

some people are so fuck up. got no idea why.
must be so fuck up ma. friends jiu suan le.
worst case. bond by blood somemore. tsk.

Fine.

2009-04-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

Fine. you win k. i give up.

hi there.

2009-04-13T22:34:00.002+08:00

what is happening? why do i keep forgetting things.
whats this, why am i being so absent minded.
Hi there. who are you? what are you? do i know you?
you seem familar. what is your name? how old are you?
what is this feeling? you seem special. are we related?
are you my sister? or my best friend? or my girl friend?
what are you doing? why are you leaving? you didn't ans me.
Hey. wait for me. why are you leaving me? stop. please.

=.=

2009-04-12T01:04:00.002+08:00

Seriously, don't sms me just cause YOU promise to.
and by the way, you said you would call, why become sms?
and whats with the, " Are you still awake? " , then next,
" nothing. sleep early. nights. " you got sms to spare,
i know that, but don't send me such stupid stuff please.
when i say i go meet you, do i like go for 1 sec and say
bye after that and go off? no right? so please hor,
don't want sms then don't. don't sms till so fuck up.

Aish

2009-04-11T18:39:00.001+08:00

You are such a disappointment to me. what happen before,
i close one eye. we are suppose to be friends since that day?
but, did you regard me as one? i suppose to have 3 outing.
because of you alone i keep push back till i cancel both for you.
and in the end, wow, you just told me, sorry i forget.
so next time, if i see you, and tell you, sorry i forget you are my friend.
you ought to run for your life first. whatever happens, don't blame me.
i only nice to my friends. that's all. =D

ROAR!

2009-04-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

Fucking FLU still not okay at all. fuck fuck fuck.
oh by the way, who you think you are? you have no rights to judge me.
however, if you insist on judging me, i got no choice but to excute
judgment on you. have fun. =D

IDIOTIC FLU!

2009-04-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

Sianz. Flu sux can. hurry stop ah!
speaking of which. talk to that retard today.
hmm. dono to say her what. funny or cute or stupid.
maybe she is lying and just trying to cover it up.
which is full of stupid loop holes. then again.
maybe she is just being honest. and she is very gong.
any case in any way, didn't felt happy hearing what she said.
like heart broken liddat. LOL. flu flu go away! time to sleep.

hmm.

2009-04-02T22:27:00.002+08:00

is tomorrow gonna be better? or just worst?
that day burn myself 4 times. today solder spill.
splash onto my face. gratz. 3 new scars. my wrist got cut too.
go site site site. attachment so sian. some ppl so strict,
some ppl so dumb. why shld i do my best for $450 a month.
cheapo company, but a $3 plus helmet for attachment student also cannot.
binder machine spoilt for 1year plus, now then want send to repair.
big boss got no idea how to operate a printer. dumb ppl.
my world is changing so suddenly. i don't like it at all.
haiz. =(

Off day!

2009-03-27T18:05:00.002+08:00

Whee!! had a off day today. had a nice night yesterday.
thanks twinny for showing me how nice bukit gombak is.
a really nice place, thou alot of insects. irritating.
thanks twinny for also teaching me something else. =p
walk from bukit batok to bukit gombak, then to ngee ann poly.
lols. long travelling. oh ya. thanks for the chicken wings too!
really nice. and really sweet of you to prepare everything. thanks.

Haiz.

2009-03-26T12:00:00.000+08:00

Why is all these happening. Am i not straight forward enough?
i already said what i wanted. why do you still not get it?
or maybe i am the stupid and foolish one. you're so confusing me.
i hate it like this. i hate everything that's going on now.
screw attachment. waste of my time. for a stupid company.
cheapskate pay so little, fucking earn so much each project.
today on bus, something funny happen thou. i think,
that's the only thing that cheer me up for the entire week so far.
i had enough of retards. can you ALL fuck off please.

i always do my best to make you smile, yet, why are you like this to me.

You're the Queen, but i'm the God Damn King.

2009-03-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder, why i even put in effort at all.
wanted to make a nice meal, take to you on thursday.
but someway, somehow, you said until it be hard for us to meet.
Fine. i got nothing else to say. ingredients buy already.
and to think, i'm already very broke, i still go buy for you.
also taken off on friday, just for that one day. now tell me this.
Nevermind. i just have to cook it for myself then.
enjoy a nice sleep on friday night. what else. no point wasting it.
your words are becoming more and more pointless. said as if didn't say.
did things start to take a turn for the worst? or what is going on.
emo? abit, but not worth it. whats with me anyway. must be crazy.
i'm still thinking of things, that only happens in dreams.
not gonna come true. why am i still so foolish.

I wonder..

2009-03-17T15:00:00.000+08:00

I wonder, do we look at the stars, or are they watching over us.
wonder why i feel the same anger, as when i broke up with J,
yet, R isn't mine to begin with. the anger, of the one i used to love,
to the one i used to hate the most. thou it's not that level of anger,
nor did it last long. it's definitely the same degree of anger.
i kept my promise to you, to be happy while you are gone.
but what about you? did you kept yours? or it was just a lie.
why? i don't know if she did lied to me, or maybe it's not her fault.
it be hard to begin with, let alone to withstand it. let fate decide?
i'm always like this, being so careless bout such stuff. De ja vu?
history repeating itself? maybe, maybe not. not for me to decide yet.
one more step, to reach that point. till then, it's really up to fate.
i'm not great enough to wish for your happiness, i want my own happiness.
sorry i'm so selfish. but this is me. i really wonder why it became like this.
do you really resemblance her in the slightest bit? or it's totally different?
i want to be stronger then this, not thinking so much bout this stuff.
but, i guess no matter how much i dream or wish, i will not give up my happiness,
for that power i always wanted. i'll pursue it, but happily, with my happiness.
i guess i been thinking too much again. life should be simple and happy.
i just want to be happy.

One and Only.

2009-03-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

My sky is so clear and distinct. the transparent promise has become the past.
You, the one holding my hands, yet your smile, can’t clearly be seen.
Did a star had a change of heart. wishes from the past, had all been forgotten.
I can’t even breathe anymore, even wanting to run from my reflections.
Baby, you are my one and only. Both worlds had already changed.
To go back to the past, is easier said than done.
Assured that you’re my one and only, telling you that I love you.
I really love you. Baby, i can’t love you more than this.
it has long past the limit of love.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!

2009-03-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

Sorry for being a bad host.
you came to my house,
and i was so tired i fell asleep.
end up leaving you alone there,
don't know doing what. hahas.
next time things will be different.
i will sure be better to you. xD

Life is great ahead!

2009-03-03T01:57:00.000+08:00

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUN WEI! 20 already! gratz!
Next, i'm disappointed with myself today. a simple question,
yet i have no courage to ask it. such a simple question.
i fear of rejection, had no confidence in myself. that's why i failed.
i lost the war, not due to the enemy, but due to myself.
this is all gonna change. the next 6months will be a good time.
for me to improve myself. (Note: doesn't mean better person.)
but just to be who i want to be. no matter which path i goes,
good or evil, light or darkness. i'll not give up, and will finish the path.
So, here's a check list what i gonna be doing or improving for the next 6months.
Check List -
1) Determination - i seriously wanna improve it, without it the rest is gone case.
2) Perseverance - thou i already have it, but it can be improve. i SURE it can.
3) Confidence - seriously lacking in this. without it, nothing much can be done.
4) Courage - i'm quite sure this will come with confidence, but still can improve.
5) Charisma - God, seriously need help in this. i sux at this.
6) Patience - i guess it be useful to me.
7) English - since i already decide what i wish to take in university, need this. >.<
8) Fitness - time to get training. NS enrollment very soon. need prepare first.
9) Driving - seriously, need that license of mine.
10) Muay Thai - this is optional. but it be beneficial if i learn it.
11) Dj~ing - optional also. it can turn out to be a nice hobby!
12) Devotion - I doing all this, just for you. no one else. it's just you. =D
13) Double edge sword - then again, it's actually for myself, cause i want you. xD

Change.

2009-02-25T01:58:00.000+08:00

An ability, all humans have.
Sub-consciously activates all the time.
Which cause lots of pain and suffering,
yet also happiness and bliss at times.
The mind to master it, will give the user,
simple happiness, as long as he want.
i'm on the way, to reaching it. Smile,
for as long as you can. it might be the last true smile.

>.<

2009-02-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

i said it, i finally said it. i'll be waiting. =D

<3

2009-02-17T20:56:00.000+08:00

Love jie! thanks for the present! xD

.

2009-02-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

exams are coming. haven't studied. but, no mood to either.
i got no mood to do anything. i hope it doesnt last too long.
have to study for exams. fuck work, work work work.
already said my studies more important. fucking keep disturb me.
screw mr vincent. best he die.

6months left.

2009-02-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

Been such a long time since i last posted on my blog.
So much been going on lately, it gets so tiring each day.
Work, studies, projects, exams, test, presentation.
Everything piles up, things get harder and harder.
Thankfully, i once again, have start going to church.
A place of peace, where i can rest my mind and soul.
Norm indeed knows me well, can tell what i thinking.
Crazy as i am now, at least i still can focus on what i want.
It's been almost 2 years, since the day i met her.
I wonder, how long will it be, before i can really stop liking her.
Roughly 6months left, till i won't be able to see her again.
Won't be able to see her smile almost everyday.
but no matter what, life goes on, i will hang in there. I must.
A lot had been happening, but i shall just stop posting anymore.
Take care all my friends. Bros for life.

Year 2009 Resolutions!

2009-01-04T20:20:00.000+08:00

First of all, cut my hair! must be like adult de hair style liao.
Second, i wanna improve my charisma and confidence level.
Third, i wanna be a Marketing Manager in 1 mth time!
Fourth, be a Business Manager in 3 mths time!
Fifth, to hit my car incentive by the end of this year!
As the Higher up says, IT'S ALL ABOUT THE MINDSET!

Aims!

2009-01-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hey hey! ytd had a good man to man talk with my bro.
practice some debating too. obviously, i nid more practice.
haha. bro, over take me. make me panic. i want that excitment.
make me desire to rise up even faster. this gonna be so so fun.
btw, wish mei mei be happy, and get wad she wants.
hopefully, i also get wad i want. 1 year. hopefully by then.
by the very last day of 2009, by 31/12/2009, 11:59pm.
JIA YOUS!

Year 2009!

2009-01-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

Lets ROCK ON! its my favorite year! Year 09.
i gonna own this year. gonna do my best.
just started out at Venture Era, straight as a ME.
Working thru the first phrase. trying to sell products.
and at the same time, recruiting pros for my guild.
haha. hope everything goes well, i wanna own!
this might be my one and only chance, so have to do my best.
oh well, also, got certain things nid to improve,
in order for me to perform even better. haha.
one more thing, VE ppl are all crazy. party like siao one. OMG.
LETS ALL HEAD TO SUCCESS, YEAR 2009, LETS GO!!!!!!!

Discipline.

2008-12-30T13:16:00.000+08:00

Gonna try really really hard this time.
Gonna quit it. i don't wanna be like this.
i want to change, i want to become better.
Gonna start working hard, game lesser.
Serious this time. i don't wanna be a kid anymore.
Working hard, on Jobs, and studies. In addition,
don't dota so often liao. Including GE also.
Quitting smoking, wish me luck please.
its like so terrible trying to quit sia.
so much for saying won't be hook onto it in the past.
oh well. MLM is hard sia, don't even know can survive.
Hopefully i can do it la, and reach the top.
Gladly, i'm finally off the hook of girls. Not flirting anymore!
cheerios, finally didn't anyhow go jio anyone.
Keeping a clear mind, just wanna head for my goals.

A simple quote, from my Bro, " Have regrets in life, then you would promise yourself not to do it again. "

yea, very true. i regret losing her. so i gonna promise myself, the next one, its gonna be different.
i won't do the same stupid mistakes again. not gonna stay the same. All the way, to the end.
Maybe it really won't matter at all in the end, but at least, i had fun heading there.
Time to go out! take care all.

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas Peeps!
So fast, another year gonna past.
A new year is coming soon!
Cheerios! but, alot of things happened.
During this holiday, realize some stuff.
Some Friends(?), yea, tot they were friends.
but actually, they are just acquaintances,
more likely to become eyesore. yup,
some don't regard me as a friend,
so i don't see why i should treat you as a friend either.
i got my friends, short of one you doesn't make a diff to me.
Awaiting the count down to a new year.
Lets party guys! blog gonna be dead for awhile. =D

Cheerios / Emo-ing

2008-12-11T13:45:00.000+08:00

Start with bad stuff first. first of all, im screwed up.
4 out of 6 paper, i die alr. especially today's.
i did only like 33% of the paper? really dead.
im really hoping for a retest, at least cap at 50% la.
In addition, i thought of the past, when with June.
Nice memories, but painful to be remembered. Ouch.
I went to dug out the past, found out some stuff.
which really makes me feel like slapping her. Sorry,
but, the things that i found out, really make me feel that,
you are such a bitch.(im not talking about same person.)
Yup. so that all about the emo part i guess.?
Well, Yayness! Common test finally over. time to party!
Norm be going over sea for mission trip, take care bro!
I be meeting 1 good fren tonite! and hopefully, today,
will be a lovely and nice day! coz its start of holiday!
oh oh, another happy thing is that, Nee San ROX!
She today gave me my belated bdae present.
& she gave me a bottle of ABSOLUT VODKA!
Song bo! love nee san la! you're the very best girl!
Whee. that all for now. TIME TO DOTA! WHOOOOOOOOO!
Love twinny too, and my close frens. =D

Humans..

2008-12-10T13:48:00.000+08:00

Fuck this screwed up world. So many people can't be trusted.

=(

2008-12-08T18:02:00.000+08:00

im such a stupid stupid fool. =(

Friends. who to trust. who not to.
really such a troubling question.
when the world turns against you,
what you gonna do? good thing,
i always got my best fren, and my bro.
i hate having to smile to those 2 face fkers.
Sorry, but you all are gonna go down.

=(

2008-12-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

What do you know,
my load came back.
it jump on me again.
fking hate it. haiz.
Fk off pls. stop doing this.
i hate you.

Hang in there.

2008-12-03T19:45:00.000+08:00

Have to hang in there. Year 2 3/4 completion already.
Studies are getting harder and harder, each and every day.
I really don't know much of what is going on in class either,
guess i been too slack or inattentive lately. Jia yous to myself.
Well, thankfully, a big load, has seem to be let off my shoulders.
Even with the study load, life seem to have gotten easier anyway.
Even though i rather have a gf, but seems to me now, not really at all.
There are times i wish there was someone for me la, but then,
i realize, my bro is there for me. Yea, but then hor, cant replace love la. =x
If can, machiam become gay already. Thank god im straight. haha.
Got someone to hug in cold nights of coz is much better rite!
Conclusion, i still want to have a gf! but i only want the correct one. =p
oh oh, for the first time in months, i finally got a good night sleep!
and because of that, i decide to skip class in the morning! muahahaha.
Close Friends Rocks My World! Cheerios!

Huat ah!

2008-12-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

Yay! Gratz Agatha! 18th liao. Huat ah!
Best Wishes Dearest Best Friend =D

Cheerios.

2008-12-02T00:46:00.000+08:00

Thanks alot JUNE. for cheering me up.
take care xiao ke ai. love you always.
see ya ard. =D

GG weeks incoming.

2008-12-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

Exams on the way. 3 test this week. not 1 is i know de.
so gg, i gonna flunk everything. i m so noob.
everyone feeling down, for some weird reason. alot emo,
alot don feel like talking. haiz, cheer up frens.
i tried cheering others up, but din really work anyway.
Norm, hang in there, although i dono much about christian,
but i know there are a lot of christian on earth.
give your god a little time to get to you, he nid take care of millions leh.
so hang in there! frens will always be there for you de.
then leh, got another fren. i tried cheering her up. yay! it works.
cheerios, and then, she had to make me emo. thanks alot ah.
so this is what frens are for isit? i don mind losing a fren like you.
seriously, no offence to girls, but girls sux! well, nt all, but most of them. =x
i know 1 girl that is the nicest! and her name is Jas. random =p

Fallen Angel Risen Devil.

2008-11-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

Falling sick, feeling unwell all the time. Studies stress coming in.
so much work, so much i don't understand. Relation problems,
not just bgr itself, but friends too. so much to handle.
feel as if my whole world is falling apart. everything falling down.
sadly, suddenly got this mind set. i cant afford to fall.
not now, not ever. if i were to fall, wad about my frens, those ard me.
constantly have to remind myself, not to fall. its so hard.
have to stand straight and tall, and support all that falling down.
no choice, got to do it. hate the random thoughts that wont let me rest.
oh well. life goes on. lets roll!

i wish..

2008-11-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

i wish for you, to be happy. that little girl.
the one that no longer remember my existence.

Paiseh ah =x

2008-11-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

Bloggin is such a good way to let off anger and stress.
so sorry to that sweet girl about yesterday post ah.
see liao don angry and murder me. xD

its my life.

2008-11-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

yup, u said it, its my life. since you don like me, then fuck off. =D

A long long day.

2008-11-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

Today was such a long day, was out for more then 18 hours.
Woke up at 6.20am. Go driving center, want to enrol.
Sunday off. fuck. end up wait for edmund till 9plus. his test.
trial test, he failed. ROFL. question so lame, no wonder la.
then go hq, reach there, imba headache. then Cs till cmi.
then dota lo. then i got so high, keep scold vulgarites for fun.
Die mother fucker DIE! lols. lame. then after that, go Pris hse.
do project, i tot i damn late. still cab there half way thru.
Reach there, just to find out, yiu long not even there yet. Sianz.
nbm. Yiu long buy lunch for me. so happy la. rofl. then do project.
play neopets and other lame games, then i felt asleep. after that,
go j8 dinner. talk alot crap with yiu long. he joker sia. then after that,
went to find edmund. standard, slack awhile, went home. end of day.
(Long story cut short, due to alot of privacy stuff, and i am tired. lol.)

Random day..

2008-11-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

Today, reach sch, i tot i haven wake up or still dreaming.
coz JUN QI WAS EARLY! WTF!! owned. that at pcn class,
i got no idea wad was going on. Ben did everything. All i did,
was to sign my own attendance. like always, ppl copy my maths.
so many ppl copy lo. then nee san borrow mine too. BUT!
SHE DO SO MUCH AHEAD THEN I ALR DID. imba shit.
ROAR! then hor, 1 question i do wrong, then all wrong with me.
muahahhahaha. who ask them want to look at mine. oh ya,
EM3A test i got Full mark! owning! i am first! i suppose?
dono if got anyone else also get full mark. but easy test la.
haha. Nee san got scam by cher. end up, get 50% nia. sad for her.
then after that, ATE class. plau chess with yi jie. own him upside down.
till he left 1 soldier and the general nia. then i bo liao. go let him win.
hahah! damn funny the way i lose. then after that, suppose to be lunch.
but i pei norman go bus stop, i go find my pgf. muahahaha.
and i hope norm don read my blog. if not he know who le. PRAY VERY HARD!
yup. she sick le. hope she takes good care. then after break, is maths class.
god, i was so bored. that i went crazy. Nee san say me mentally unstable.
rofl! quite true la. go that cher class sure ki siao one. i keep ji siao nee san,
then she whack me. then i told her, 打是疼，骂是爱。so ask her keep whack me.
LOLs! crazy me. then she whack me, i go whack ben. ki siao me. laugh like siao.
then end class, GO HOME! oh yea, nee san look so pretty today. and hor,
YAP ZI JING IS MY SUGAR MUMMY! LOLS!

愛轉角

2008-11-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today blogging, coz pgf requested it. if not i also too lazy to blog.
lols. feeling very sick. diarrhoea 2nd day alr. sian nor. still got fever.
go school, early in the morning, have class. cold till like dono wad.
then go maths, cant stand the lecturer. she is so irritating. hate her.
then after that, 4hour break. went home, play 1 round dota. end up,
took only a file to sch later. so light. then yea, today was fun, but long.
go home that time raining. so i just walk in the rain la. big deal. sick only.
Yeap. i m old enough to take care of myself. you told me that. and yeap,
i agree. i won't need you yea, i be okay looking after myself, since that
what you meant anyway. so i will stop disturbing you, okay?

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愛轉角

我偽裝著不露痕跡的
想在你身邊靜靜的陪著看著天邊
騎著單車往前行進著
某個路口愛在等著
你往前走不回頭看了
記憶的笑臉緩緩的敲著我的琴鍵
我不捨得讓你孤單單的
我愛你的心牽掛著

心不再拼命躲不去害怕結果
假設有個以後你會怎麼說
一直想跟你說幸福不再溜走
下個路口你會看見愛有美麗笑容

愛轉角遇見了誰是否有愛情的美
愛轉角以後的街能不能有我來陪
愛轉角遇見了誰是否不讓你流淚
也許陌生到了解讓我來當你的誰
我不讓愛掉眼淚不讓你掉眼淚
現在永遠你就是我就是我的美

心不再拼命躲不去害怕結果
假設有個以後你會怎麼說
一直想跟你說幸福不再溜走
下個路口你會看見愛有美麗笑容

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Song lyrics.

2008-11-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

Heya heya heya heya hey
I’m thinking about you, I’m a love shy baby
got to got to get together be strong
‘coz our love will be coming and I won’t be love shy anymore

Sometimes I run when I wanna stay
it’s all about life that we’re living
I just gotta watch what your scheming
and when I see you I wanna hide
a little afraid of the feeling
one look at you boy and I’m dreaming

And deep inside there’s a love calling out your name
but I’m not the kinda boy who thinks its just a game we play
don’t think that I don’t wanna get involved with you
its all I wanna do won’t you try to understand me

Heya heya heya heya hey,
I’m thinking about you, I’m a love shy baby
got to got to get together be strong
‘coz our love will be coming and I won’t be love shy anymore

Try to be patient I know its hard
baby it’s worth all the while
with me its a slow kinda style
and when you feel your intentions stray
remember that love is the reason
the good things in life don’t come easy

And though I spend a few Saturday nights
on the telephone when I could be touching your face
for me emotion takes a mighty long time
but soon the light will be shining, and I won’t be love shy anymore

Heya heya heya heya hey,
I’m thinking about you, I’m a love shy baby
got to got to get together be strong
‘coz our love will be coming and I won’t be love shy anymore

I’ve be watching you watching me,
and I know your on it,
I’m a little love shy boy,
so why don’t you put your number on this paper,
maybe I will call you later,
I need love I need trust,
anything you got boy its all good,
I like it like that I like it like this,
I know I’m shy boy
but I know you’ll like this,
so take my number come on over be my Soulja Boy,
and when you’re over
I will show you how you shout it boy.

Heya heya heya heya hey,
I’m thinking about you, I’m a love shy baby
got to got to get together be strong
‘coz our love will be coming and I won’t be love shy anymore

my Pendulum.

2008-11-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

Stop the pendulum. stop it.
i told u how i felt about u.
u tot i was joking.
i said it again, i am serious bout u.
you still choose to not believe.
then what else you want me to say.
my heart alr hurts, when u say i was joking.
i told u again, i was not.
and you push the pain, further into my heart.
All i can say to you now is,
yea, i'm just joking, take it i said nothing at all.

When..

2008-11-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

when will you be mine..

Happy Birthday Jenny!

2008-10-31T22:38:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday! 20 liao wor. feeling old rite? don be.
haha. i also not much younger then you. hehe.
Wishing you dreams and wishes come true. haha.
Today.. went to school. early by 30min. clap for myself.
haha. then today practical. omg man. i dono whats going on.
just copy lo. hehe. then wanted to skip pcn. the whole class.
then the lecturer, called zijing. so sad la. nbm lo. just attend.
then hor, i bring notes. guai rite? he say the notes he use,
from else where. waste my time. i bring my notes for wad then.
then hor, he also no brain one can. damn stupid. he said,
those that bring notes or laptop, do qn 1 to 17. those don have,
do 15 to 17. OF COURSE ALL SAY NEVER BRING LA. kum gong.
nbm. then go next class. i forget the name, but its simple la.
quite fun thou, and class ended early. haha. then Jenny scam me!
she say meet 6pm. end up, i tell her, sch just end, i on the way.
she reply she now also on the way there. ahh! heng i reach first.
how can let a girl wait for me. then, we headed to watch HSM3.
very nice movie. better then HSM & HSM2. haha. after buy ticket,
still got time. we go play arcade. omg man, our basketball sux big time.
So after the movie, we went to eat jap food at this cute little stall.
not that ex. but not filling. but after i walk awhile, seem quite filling after all.
Oh, thanks jenny for paying for the tickets. her birthday let her pay! LOLS.
well, at least i treat her dinner, if not i can go die alr. haha. Okay, then we go home.
but damn funny la. she say don wan shop alr, but kept entering stalls!
oh well. nbm. she so sweet looking can. if got gf liddat not bad. too bad no feeling.
haha! anyway, her taste also too high, i pei bu shang her. haha. so we took bus home,
and talked quite alot la. i think this is first time go out with her. haha. fun fun.
next time can ask her out again. haha! take care all. =p

Bored day. & Angry too.

2008-10-30T17:17:00.000+08:00

today is a damn bored day. bcoz got school.
started the day with, PCN. LJ sia, buy wrong notes.
nbm. class at 8am. i reach on time. cheerios.
but bcoz need wait for more students. end up,
8.45am start. waste my time can. then nbm.
Alot of people copied my maths! nid prove?

there. that my book in the center! roar!
then next, maths class. do maths again lo.
guess wad? i so hardworking do my work.
she din bother checking my work. du lan sia.
like do for nothing. then leh, go ATE.
stupid class also. tutorial, 4 question.
he give all the ans. done. lame right.
ok. then next, 2 hours lecture. OMG MAN.
really can sleep. here's a few examples.

Case 1: ben do till slp. wonder how sia.

Case 2: Nee-san. See, so bored.

Case 3: Wilson. Goner alr.

Case 4: Justin Chang. Also goner.

Case 5: Yijie. See his face? looks so bored.

Case 6: Yep, it's me. this is how i sleep in class.
See. everyone either sleeping or bored.
ok end sch. cheerios. go home. OMFG!
my mum took my packet of mango pudding mix,
and make into mango pudding. si bei du lan la.
that one people give one lo. i got no intention to use it!
fuck sia. too bad she my mum. cannot scold her.
oh well. after that, 5pm went jogging with aga.
fun fun fun. whats the most funniest thing?
stadium close, end up, we wonder ard while exercising.
lala. so funny. she keep say no photo to be taken.
so in the end. i send her home as usual. haha. hot hot hot ah!
while walking home, something shocking happened.
dono i exercise till i too blur alr, or i think of June too much,
or it's just a freaking coincidence! i saw a replica of June!
scary okay. i really tot is her. but the miracle is,
she is actually shorter then June. She look like only 148cm?
haha! why i know ah? coz aga slightly taller nia. hehe.
i'm so evil. haha. oh well. was all sweaty after workout.
if not maybe can ask her number! Lols! Dinner time.
then omg. i saw her again! she put flyer at my hse. ROFL!
as usual. din ask the number. haha.

Public holiday MONDAY!

2008-10-27T21:32:00.000+08:00

Didn't do much today, suppose to go for soccer,
but i over sleep! all yi jie fault la. haha! we dota,
till ard 6am or 7am i think. then go sleep. wake up,
10am alr. suppose to meet at 10am! omfg!
so i just went back to sleep la. since i cannot make it alr.
haha. at evening leh, i went to eat jap food! but then,
i was actually prefering to eat mac. abit stupid thou.
oh oh! then the jap food place, got this girl so cute!
the waitress! lols. ok. enough of her. the food was so so.
but then leh, the beef terriyaki is awesome! damn nice.
but then, abit nia, and cost $8.90 alr! cant afford it. haha.
oh ya, also don have my oyster nor my Mango Milkshake.
Damn sad. ok. tired alr. tml 8am class. nite nite.

Weird.

2008-10-25T04:21:00.000+08:00

Okay, this gonna be a emo post as usual.
but lets start off with the weird things.
i got no idea why, nowadays, i kept reading
manga that are boys dressing up as girl.
wth man. i just random click the button,
choose a random manga. give me this.
wth la. but not bad la. actually its quite nice.
oh well. suddenly, came to the tot that,
everything seem just meaningless and pointless.
everything just gonna become a memory,
no matter good or bad, happy or sad.
that kinda pathetic. oh well. off to bed.

Zz

2008-10-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

emo emo. act smart go do smth i should not do.
now make myself so miserable. what i did?
not saying. privacy. lol. so many things affect me.
what goes on now, will be just a memory the next moment.
so why am i thinking so much? still, i dono. damn it.
school tml morning at 8am. so damn sian. can don go?
i hate school. hate the bloody place. ngee ann poly,
its where all these crap started. why i choose this school?
i hate it, i should have just gone JC. Fuck la.

The 5 Fs!

2008-10-22T21:47:00.000+08:00

My mei mei show me de, doesn't mean i m liddat hor!

The Famous International 5 Fs

1. First, you FIND a girl;
2. Second, you FEED the girl;
3. Third, you FONDLE the girl;
4. Forth, you F*#K the girl;
5. Last, you FORGET the girl....

what a day.

2008-10-22T20:33:00.000+08:00

tiring day today. class started at 9. n i was late.
i reach at 9.30. n it was until 10. n the only class for the day.
lame lame. i spend so much time traveling la. stupid traffic jam.
cannot blame me rite. haha. then after that, afternoon go job interview.
n gratz me! i got it. i think. well, at least i be going for training. haha.
nice pay and working hours. after which, went chinatown. omg man.
that place, edmund last time think, its for family and old ppl.
today, we walk, and agreed that, actually, its for guys. your ownself go see.
then your will understand le. especially guys. lolol. n most funny thing is,
my job interview got ask about HEIGHT! lol! that so lame can. but ok la.
not my prob. cause i also not that short wad. haha. so tired now la. wanna slp.
i wish to be the one to be by your side. =x

GOD DAMN IT LA.

2008-10-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

ok. this is fuck up. i hate the fucking lecturer.
cb la. ask us to update to version 4 for Scientific Notebook.
i update liao. and thankfully, i rmb my god damn password.
and happily, i open all my notes, take out the bloody paper.
all my stuff used for maths. click open document. guess wad?

%% This document created by Scientific Notebook (R) Version 3.5

wtf is that? version 3.5? then ask us update for what fuck.
now i can't do my work. waste of my time. bitch.
damn u. why this sem you teach. everyone hates you.
ROAR! actually i think only me norman n jun qi, but don care la.
i'm kinda in my own world now. just like in the past,
my world of nonsense, disillusion, self deception. nothing matters,
at least that what i told myself. just study study study.
earn money, go club V3 and enjoy. enjoy life. song jiu hao.

HUNGRY LA

2008-10-19T05:28:00.000+08:00

this is a random post. i m so damn hungry.
since wake up till now, ate 1 meal only.
roar! really damn hungry la. need food.

Quotes.

2008-10-18T22:19:00.000+08:00

First thing first. quote.

Waiting – Just for you.

Clocks are ticking and time is moving,
Yet just for you, I am here waiting.
Seasons pass and cycles repeat again,
Yet just for you, I’ll wait even in vain.

I see flowers blooming in their prime,
And again I see them wilting with time.
I see my friends in pairs, happy as can be,
Yet just for you, I’ll keep myself free.

I’ve waited through passages of time,
And I’ve long since passed my prime.
Yet just for you, I’ll wait once more.
For it’s you and you alone that I adore.

© By jtingx

ok. poem by my jie. nice not. haha.

somemore, is she ask me to blog today de.

actully i no mood to do so la. but nbm.

speaking of relations, i haven do my work,

for the stupid understanding relationships module.

oh btw, my dear friend, don't think that you won.

just bcoz i treated you like a friend, i avoid to fight you.

and if you really think your so pro, come fight me,

any time. gladly, i'll crush you. you're a true friend to me.

that why i didn't want to quarrel. if a slight difference,

in opinions, can make you want tio me tai ji, i really think,

your not worth being my friend. i'm not hiding behind my com.

i just rather not fight. Wanna fight? bring it. i'm nice to my friends,

because YOU are my FRIEND. Any prob come tell me.

And don't say i want find you trouble, i didnt put down names.

Well, enough of this. kinda nothing to blog about le. lol -.-

oh yea. i slp from 6am to 6pm. i'm so pig. and damn it.

10pm nia, i feel like slppin again. this is so sian can. nvm.

i go dota awhile then do my MATHS ONLINE. god i hate that lecturer.

i wish she die. this sem siao liao la. all so hard, then so many fuck up lecturer.

ok ok. enough. dota time. bye bye.

p.s. was worried about that little girl that went out so late yesterday. omg. -.-

im happy =D

2008-10-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

haha. thinking back today, about the few stuff.
found it rather stupid. might as well mention it.
firstly, was dota-ing in class as usual. duh. wad else.
yup, own ben again. din felt much enjoyment thou.
next, eng teck(NOOB) talk big again as usual la.
coz i was talking about flirting with girls,
and how to woo them. i not a pro, but also nt dumb.
eng teck thinks he can win me, and i said, i got 9 ex.
he reply, still play got string attached de. then i reply,
no string attached de? got XX(hidden for my privacy).
he say, my taste must be low. wad a joke man.
cannot win me, then liddat say. he want, also don have.
think he pay money, also no ppl want. think he still dono,
both classes dislike him. to such a big extent pls.
2nd year, he still have to eat alone. sad rite?
i don't pity him at all, coz his attitude is fuck up. too bad.
there are people that also have to eat alone, but leh,
they are always welcome to join my group.
it is just that they rather wander off alone, of find their frens.
so enough about the bastard. he may excel at a lot of things,
but the bottom line is, no matter how pro, u stand alone.
no matter how noob i am, i got tons of frens backing me. =D
So today, lunch, omg man. i ate zi ma hu only.
during lesson stomach keep roaring, so paiseh can.
this sem, most of the modules, look so stressful can!
like damn hard la. but at least, it is damn fun too.
bcoz of my module, i do intend to pick up playing guitar,
or the piano. at least it enhance my soul, compared to dota-ing.
i got intention to learn muay thai too, but abit out of my class.
not fit enough >.< , so still pending la that one.

so currently, my list of things in life that is important:
1) Learning guitar, piano & things related to music.
2) my studies!
3) gaming. ( i still nid some time off rite.)
4) love life.

Yup. i didn't put best friends in, bcoz they are a class on thier own.
Nothing can replace them. studies wise. omg la. i see the modules,
the things to study. my goal of GPA 4 really fly away le. too hard.
Especially my favorite module, Music & music production. Gaming,
still need to relax, and being able to spend time with my frens too.
Love life wise, thou i wanted to practice, but i been thru a lot,
this 2 years. it really crazy, 7ex in 2 years. well, at least to me is crazy.
so i just gonna, slow down, focus on the stuff that be more beneficial to me.
so i guess, i'am waiting for her? kinda. but i need my break.
my heart can't take anymore stress alr! this is my current wishes.
hope everything goes smoothly for me this sem!

Happy - makes - my - world - go - round.
& - i - am - glad - my - friends - are - happy - too.
Love you all. =D

死

2008-09-21T04:03:00.000+08:00

心死了，人死了。
一切都不重要了。
没了你，我也活不下去了。
--------------------------
Set a date,
i'll be waiting.
Until then,
i promise,
i will do my best,
to stay happy.
If, after that date,
i'm still waiting,
i hope everything will end.
Someway, somehow,
i'll end everything.

Happy la.

2008-09-16T19:43:00.000+08:00

GG. decision made.
Ni xing fu jiu hao. =D

CISLY

2008-09-16T14:32:00.000+08:00

Fuck, so damn tired.
the mind differs from the heart.
what is it i really want?
God damn it. Fuck my life.
Got to be decisive,
but how to when my mind is in a swirl.
Screw this fuck up mind of mine.

i hate you.

2008-09-08T05:38:00.000+08:00

i really have got no idea why,
i m just feeling this way now.
wish i can kill you right now.
the feeling that's inside me,
it's making my blood boil.
i went out for a long run,
to try and chill and relax.
30min straight non stop,
more than my normal,
was still not enough,
to cool me down,
not even one bit.
i really hate you,
a lot a lot a lot.
and to quote,
from you,
Fuck you.

Aug 26

2008-08-26T19:12:00.000+08:00

Happy 20th birthday da jie! Olg already. GRATZ! LOL. Ok that aside.
Today go out with aga, edmund, edwin. Suppose to be bugis, but change to PS.
Bad decision. Lol. All suppose to meet at 1pm? End up at reach at 1.30pm.
Just nice for movie. 4bia really is a IMBA movie k. Worst horror movie i ever see.
Worth watching, but not for the faint of heart. Scary, last of the story can't tahan alr.
4 stories la. WTF. anyway, was a great movie. At end of movie, we wait for aga go toilet.
I stand with edwin, then edmund was else where. KNN, fucking got 1 couple walk pass,
leep look back stare at us. I told edmund, then he fucking du lan go chase after them.
Tried stopping him, but can't. Oh well, when they turned, was an innocent peace looking couple.
End up, edmund don dare kao bei the couple alr. So for face, i finish up for him luh.
Poor couple, but who ask them stare at us. Next thing, Go arcade, play bball and outrun2.
WTF sia, edwin and aga totally trash me and edwin. ROFL. then out run, Mund first i 2nd. =D
So went to lunch, and i was saying, i not gonna have another gf until 1 year later, with 1 exception.
Shortly, after lunch we went walking around. Entered this book store.
I saw this cute girl sitting on the floor. Didn't really care about her the first time.
Second time i walk pass her. Omg. She is really so cute la. But, don't dare approach her.
Third time i walk pass her, Hmm, She looks so damn familar, and i was not wearing specs.
But not like i gonna wear specs infront of her to take a closer look at her rite. i not stupid. -.-
So i went to tell edmund, THAT GIRL THAT IS SO SO CUTE. Edmund took a look, and....
Hey IVORY! You work here ah! GG to me la. Why her. Why must it be her? 1 year?
I didn't even last a hour. Since i got no intention to woo her, i tot i already don't like her le.
3 times kanna TIAN. Why she so cute. Then after that, i got kinda SIO. Then edmund keep ask why.
Simply, i can't believe i am so weak that i didn't even last a hour, can't believe, i still like her so much.
Aiya, fuck my life la. Later going chalet, just gonna relax and enjoy myself hao le.

Holidays are here!

2008-08-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

Whee! Holidays ppl. 2 month. gonna work anyway.
First day of holiday chiong already. 2am, i walked to HQ.
I must be crazy to do so la. Reach at 3. Ryan, Edmund, Thaddeus there.
Tha fucking slp almost all the way la. poor guy. too tired alr. oh well.
then we talked alot of crap. Initially, was G**** stories. but then stopped la.
Wrong place, Wrong date, Wrong timing to do so. then after that, went to mac.
Whoo! the new burger damn nice. Ryan got good taste. Btw, Edmund is really a fucker.
He never sleep for 53 hours he still so Ki Siao and energetic. Then Ryan was talking about sex.
*Jealous* lol -.- . He professional alr, i nvr try b4. haha. Went home in the morning la.
Oh ya, Ryan was talking something about end of the world. Dono can believe anot.
Look ovver the web alr, few webs got say about it. But Ryan say, if it is real, he just then lo.
B4 die go around killing spree. Lols. Crazy one. Oh well, but if everyone gonna die,
don't really matter wad. Haha. Ok la, enough sadist stuff, holiday must happy!
Cheerios!

P.s Love that short little girl. =p

Mango

2008-08-14T12:47:00.000+08:00

My dinner for today was fantastic!

and this is it! not cheap okay. not filling also. =x
Well, bro, things went as i expected, thou i hope it didn't.
Guess that was the end of it. Don't need RM le. =D

Happy national day!

2008-08-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

Happy national day! Suppose to go out with some moron.
end up that retard cant make it. saded. but staying home rox.
coz i got to talk to emily. wee. she so funny today. cheer me up.
lalala. exam coming le. alr reach study week. GG.com.sg/OWNED
that is kinda lame, but who cares. =p ending here.

El Nin-Yo!
----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Can you feel it coming down?
Comes down harder, harder
Comes down faster, faster
You're burning Hotcha!

You got my temperature rising
Like El Nin-YO! [x4]

Can you feel the fire in my eyes?
What my lips desire can't be denied
I can take you to a place where the sun don't shine
Oh owo wo, I'll melt your mind

[Pre-Chorus]
You could say
I'm old fashioned
But a circuit snaps when the temperature rises
I'm all consumed by passion

[Chorus]
I need rain rain rain
I'm burning up in here
This drought's 'bout to disappear
Rain rain rain
I'm burning up in here
Ready or not, open up

You got my temperature rising
Like El Nin-YO! [x4]

Don't leave me till I'm satisfied
I won't say "NO" to something I haven't tried
I won't object to my hands and feet being tied
This girt don't know 'bout being shy

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]
Open up and let it rain

You got my temperature rising
Like El Nin-YO! [x4]

Can you feel it coming down?
Comes down harder, harder
Comes down faster, faster

[Chorus]
Come on and let it rain

[Chorus]
Open up and let it rain

You got my temperature rising
Like El Nin-YO! [x4]

You're burning Hotcha!
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Hmm.

2008-08-05T16:44:00.000+08:00

Happiness is easy to find, if humans don't ask too much.
Like today for example, i talked to her, just a few sentences,
somemore on msn, quite happy about it already. Because,
i got the chance to at least chat with her. Simple Happiness.
Oh ya, today when out with [K]. It was really damn funny.
I help him take hp, then bottle never close, i bend down,
all the water splash out on his leg. All the ants gonna bite him!
Muahahahahahahah, i am so evil. Oh well, that all for today.
Ps: Your one cute girl, no matter you allow me to say or not! =D

Haiz

2008-08-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

So got owned can. Got back up, tried to give it all,
got knocked down again. This is all totally crap.
Decisions decisions decisions.. Haiz.

Booooooooooooooooooooo!

2008-07-27T03:26:00.000+08:00

i am an unknown person! rofl!
ok nbm. so long bo post. today late night come post.
& just nice, Happy 18th Birthday Justin. Tyco your in my post.
Okay, that aside, i emo-ing! sad life. =(
*************************************************************
Reading your blog each day is all that i can do,
cause i really do not know you at all.
Some day, i will take that step, to know you.
Some day, Some day..

hmm.

2008-07-23T14:27:00.000+08:00

Hmm.
Came to know the existence, of a cute girl.
she look real sweet and nice.
wonder got chance to be friends with her anot.
As the saying goes, let nature runs it's course.
Although i'm wishing it goes the way i want. =D

o.o

2008-07-02T12:59:00.000+08:00

well, been single for some time. no point deleting my old post,
so i just simply remove the photos. the rest just leave it,
not like it matters to me anyway. Oh well. Life like this.
Dono what else better to say about myself.
LOLs! zi high, then time back to emo-ing.
............................................................................................................

what the...

2008-06-11T13:33:00.000+08:00

what have i become, that my gf is scared of me,
don even dare to talk to me, am i that scary?
did i really change so much? wonder whats going on..

ZZ

2008-06-06T20:56:00.000+08:00

exam just finish thou, but still not feeling any better.
life so sianz can. exam finish, lian xu ton 2 nites alr.
then today most likely go bear house, 3 nites no touch my bed.
sometimes, people just ask too much from me.
i am also just an average everyday teen.
June say i sure got way make her happy de,
because of some prob, she cried a few times today.
If i really know how to cheer her up, i would have done so.
She ask me, going 6th mth le, happy anot.
and all i thinking of was like.. erm...?
nothing to be happy about..?
been thinking alot this few days, life really do sux eh.
not i want to say, but so many fkers in this world.
the world is better off without humans.
humans only know how to destroy the earth.
cost of all resources rising. doubt it can last any much longer.
few more natural disaster and there goes the earth.
emo this few days, which nothing is helping at all.
sianz. hope go bear house i might feel better lo.
haiz. *signing off*

Dance dance dance.

2008-05-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

Been such a long time, since i last post on my blog.
since today so free, i shall do it. life is so boring recently.
i am sianz of almost everything, sad to say thou.
the only thing that interest me now is dance.
Wanna learn dance to the very extreme.
be a pro, dance to freedom, move to the rhythm of my life.
Oh well. anyway. today was such a stupid day.
i oversleep for a 1pm class. how stupid can that be?
then enter class, lecturer ask us do our work.
which was done within awhile. she said 1hr later present.
end up 3pm den present. if she let us present earlier,
2pm go home alr. somemore, that all we did that day.
what a waste of my time. But, its ok, at least i met my twin.
Going home that time, saw calvin they all. cant believe wad xiu bei told calvin.
anyway,i don care. took bus home with zi jing. & guess wad? i sent her home.
hahahah. wanna go out with her de, but she not really free. oh well.
den i walk home from her house, took quite a while, but nvm.
i gt nth better to do anyway.

After so long~

2008-04-26T11:41:00.000+08:00

Yeap. After so long, finally decided to blog again today!
Been feeling tired recently, but getting better le.
Started my dance class =D hope to master it real soon.
Life is getting boring for me. So sianz can.
So trying to fill up all the free time i have, so wont bored.
Oh well, at least can count on my frens for fun.
As for gf leh, don seem like e girl i first noe le. =/
Today went out with chenn, plus her cousin & chenn's sis.
Wonder why chenn sis, the shy one, came today.
Anyway, Nini was going for model agency, at Whampo.
So pei her go lo. Waited so long for her.
The agency like cheat money one, the person keep asking for money.
After that was done, went to toa payoh tgt. Go kfc eat.
Then went shopping ard. Chenn and me got tired, so went to sat down,
while Nini & ziling continue go shopping. Did alot of catching up with chenn.
Lots of fun la. So long never chat with Chenn. So love tokin to her.
No wonder she is one of my best frens =D
Well. nothing much to add le. *Logging off*

4th mth =)

2008-04-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

Thanks dear, for the things u did for me today.
Next time don't do dao too late le =x
Finally 4th mth le. we still gt a long long way to go =)
& tzeming owe me a meal. he lost e freaking bet! xD
come to think of it, its been a long time since i last blog =x
Sorry dear today din treat u eat pastamania, but kfc.
Next time will treat u to eat smth better de, promise.
Anyway, zhu so poor thing, hear her tok abt her schedule,
can faint la. she like forever so bz. no time for herself at all.
Zhu jia yous! u can do it de. No matter wad, don give up =)

Anyway, here's a list of thing that i wish to achieve!
1) Join back Aikido!
2) Learn hip-hop
3) Part time at Mediacorp
4) Still gt time for dear
5) main 3.5 & above for gpa
6) stop slacking
7)Wish zhu will be more relaxed n not so stress >.<

xD

2008-03-26T09:37:00.000+08:00

Ni gan dong ma?
xD
So damn funny can.

=p

2008-03-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

Cheerios to exam results! did better den the same before.
finally can pull up GPA. xD
oh well. hopefully tonite i can hav my good nite slp in a whole week.
so tired after coming bak from bear's hse.
Bear scam me T.T
At bear hse so fun can. play Magic Big 2.
Loser see left how many cards den do push in ratio to cards left.
Yeap. did alot of push up. Poor Tm did e most. stupid idiot la =.=
Ok. den today, eat so much. sure gain 1kg. ought to go exercise tml.
Recently gt a new nice little mei. =p
But hai her kanna scolding few days ago. feel so bad la Zz.
oh well. tired le. that all for now =x

3rd mth!

2008-03-09T15:49:00.000+08:00

Whee!! Happy 3rd month to me and dear!
we stil gt a long way to go! xD
Today, started e day at 8am by waking dear up..
hehe.. den go bak to slp le.. after tat, the "glass" woke me up.
dono y the hell she came so early. den so late start baking.
after tat, dear came. so started making the crabstick with mayo.
halfway thru i sianz of tearing it up, so just ate e rest normally.
shld hav chill the mayo crabstick, will be much better lo.
soon after, started the spagetti. had to make 3 shares la. -.-
Stupid glass today whole day be lightbulb.
come bake cake den stay so long. ROAR!
but lastly, e mango pudding only i n dear eat la.
haha! den after tat drink red wine.
cant believe after 1 cup my face so red le la. diaox.
after better le so send dear home le.
think bukit batok our fav place le.
forever go there for dinner one. haha!
after which, reach dear de home le.
den bring dog go walk walk. pro dog lo.
att 2 humans, 2 cats, & "befriend" a dog.
can't believe it attacked e dog too.
crazy crazy. oh well. walk the dog 2hrs plus.
den send dear home & went home le. xD
loves dear =p

Why..

2008-03-07T15:28:00.000+08:00

Why am i thinking so much.
Why am i feeling so down and lost.
Why am i trying to back out now.
Why did things change so fast.
Why did the feeling change.
Why is it getting so hard to go on.
Why am i putting in so much effort.
Why does love have to occur.
Why why why.

-.-

2008-03-05T16:41:00.000+08:00

thx dear ytd pass medi to me..
even thou din get to see me..
today attachment freaking sianz ah..
no mood blog le.. tatas..

First time cooking for dear!

2008-03-03T17:00:00.000+08:00

Today been a very tiring day.. went to Tamp de ntuc..
coz buying the ingredients to make the jelly hearts..
took almost 1hr for the whole shopping plus travelling..
so we bought, Digestive biscuits, butter, cream cheese,
icing sugar, gelatin, vanilla essence, jelly crystal & strawberries!
so reach wai's home, den started doin le.. very long process..
So we started by crumbling the biscults.. that was the base!
very nice base lo.. den pour melted butter in, den stir it tgt..
after which we let it set for 30mins.. so we proceed on to the cheese!
stir the cheese n mix with vanilla essence.. hell it la.. stir 30min leh!
so we pour the cheese onto the base, n den again, let it set..
IT FREAKING TOOK 3hrs! WTFFFFFFFF!! very time consuming..
so last part was, to make the jelly.. add boiling water to the crystal,
den totally dissolve le den add cold water!
place the strawberries on the cheese first,
den pour the solution onto the cheese, gently! haha..
den hor, the strawberries started floating! omg man, had a hard time..
had to push all the strawberries onto the cheese, den make dao so nt nice looking..
oh well, den let it set again.. this time take 2hr 30min.. wtf la..
so after which, wanted to give dear a surprise, so took train..
so nan de.. i don take train de lo.. so from Tampanies all the way to Jurong East!
After which run to dear de house, den called her.. freaking hell.. so many miss cal,
she still haven ans.. Make me so pissed off can.. end up put on floor, den stood there..
make sure no one take.. Dear finally ans, den i told her i left it on the floor, so i left..
gt so so angry la.. wanted to smash the whole jelly heart cheese cake..
but did not.. as i left, i gt so angry till i felt like crying lo.. wonder y i so stupid..
wan to give dear a surprise, travel so much, spend so much time n money,
just to pass the cheese cake.. wonder why the hell i shld fall in love..
i also scolded dear, for not picking up the phone after i called so many times..
so slowly, the thoughts just came in, felt so bad that i scolded dear,
went its not really her fault she charging hp & din noe i m calling..
i wanted ti be stupid, just coz it would make dear happy..
as for why wan fall in love, is just because of dear..
wad better reasons are there =)

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2008-02-19T17:25:00.000+08:00

YES! FINALLY FREE FROM EXAMS!!
finally, after today's paper.. it marks the end of year 1!!
on to holidays.. but awhile nia.. den gt attachment..
haha.. but at least don nid study like siao anymore..
ok.. today exam paper was a goner.. don care le..
hehe! at least its over.. dono y today so high..
even b4 exam start so high liao.. deplete my energy..
ok.. so on with the FUN FUN FUN!!
dear came to school to find me.. den i send her to plaza sing..
i make her late.. so paiseh luh.. hehe.. den go find edmund n ryan..
woow! dota kanna thrash like fk.. coz of edwin! feed edmund so much..
sad me la.. kanna own like dono wad sia.. poor me T.T
but its just a game.. don care.. xD
after awhile more.. jiu go find dear le.. send her home..
i was so so slppy can.. too tired le.. drained almost all my energy..
coz din slp well den so hyper in sch like dono wad.. hahas..
so in the end, din really hao hao pei dear.. sorry =(
Ok.. waiting for the bus took so long la.. and I m glad it..
Coz.. hav a lot of reasons la.. basically is take pics with dear!

[PHOTOS]

ok ok.. enough of pics.. get on with the blogging.. haha!
yeap.. so send her bak taking bus 52.. i kept slppin..
den dear secretly took a pic of me slppin.. think i dono!
ROAR! den after tat.. take bus home.. slp like dono wad sia..
wake up only 1hr later.. reach toa payoh already..
so change bus go home.. ah!! damn tired can..
wanna drop dead le.. ought to slp soon..
tml gt a date with dear! Loves dear! Muacks!!

Take the bitter, with the sweet..

2008-02-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

Anytime your ready, i'll take you away..
To where we belong..

First Valentine's Day!

2008-02-15T14:48:00.000+08:00

Today had the first Valentine's Day with dear..
although the time we spend together was short,
i enjoyed it alot.. Quality, not quantity..
but does not hurt to have both rite? hahas!
Thanks Dear for all that you have done for me..
its like so so much la.. den i study, so nvr do much for u..
the cookies were nice, wad you wrote on the card is..
Really very touching.. Hope we have alot more V.Day ahead..
Sorry today morning i took so long, still ask you come all the way..
hehe.. next time will make it up to you de.. promise xD
so basically, today woke up, start to get changed n u reached!
den i only change shirt only lo.. den go change to jeans..
den style hair.. after tat, think too informal for restaurant..
go change again, den redo hair.. den waste so much time..
hahas! well.. at least we gt to the restaurant on time rite?
For 2 of ur, it cost.. $65.44.. abit ex la.. but still ok..
once a year so nvm la.. haha! some more coz is for u..
oh well.. we sat there for abt almost 2 hrs i think..
ate alot.. funny part is, i peel prawn for you, you peel for me also..
haha! mango flavored coke taste nice la.. next time try again..
oh ya, my art.. had to do 3 times b4 can take photo..
all the waiter fault.. keep taking away my plate..

[photo]

then after that, got the editted version also.. no idea which look better..

[photo]

ok.. so after that.. slack around awhile.. so while slacking,
i took a few zi lian photo.. & Dear actually stole it!!
Omg la.. anyhow take one lo.. haha..
ok.. so after that.. we go take bus.. 143 took forever to come..
den hor.. nvm leh.. we slowly take.. den another 143 overtake us..
reach interchange le, nt even 2min, the next 143 came..
the stupid uncle drive so slow la.. wth man.. waste my time..
den send dear home.. den i play maple 2min??
den dear de bro keep wan use my acc..
he kept asking till he cry.. i bo bian nid leave for work den lend him..
sianz nor.. hope nth bad happen to it.. hahas! don care la..
after that left for work.. n nth else worth blogging abt..
den after work go home.. the cookies dear make so nice can..
but chocolate chip abit too big le la.. nid smaller.. hahas..
den i read the card.. so love dear now la..
thx for letting me know how it feels to be in love..
i love you my dear =) Happy Valentine's Day to you =p
No more time blog le, tml exam nid study.. tatas..

=)

2008-02-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

Dear, sometimes you make me wanna kiss you,
yet sometimes you really make me feel i can't do without you..
Thanks.. i really appreciate what you did today..
Next time don't chiong taxi pls, waste money leh..
But still, so happy to see you today..
Btw, my studies are so not as important as you are to me..

Overall, had a happy day today =)

Zz..

2008-02-10T17:18:00.000+08:00

Ryan was right, bros shld come first..
Fk bgr.. Fine.. this is the last time..
If you want me, then come get me..
if not you just FUCK OFF!

=(

2008-02-09T15:05:00.000+08:00

Dear.. miss you so much..
your not in town.. time is passing so slow..
its so so slow.. i wanna see you right now..
can't do without you =(
Anyway, happy 2nd mth dear!
we will still be tgt for much much longer!
If there's anything longer then forever,
it be how love i'll love you! =p

*

The stupid bastard that bully my mei,
you had better keep your hands & tongue,
to yourself.. stick it out one more time,
u better be careful that it will not get chopped off..

Random song~

2008-02-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

"You Make Me Wanna"

You know you make me wanna.
You know you make me wanna.

To start it off I know you know me
To come to think of it, it was only last week.
That I had a dream about us, oh.
That's why I am here, I'm writing this song.
To tell the truth you know I have been hurting all along,
Someway let me know, you want me girl.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
Baby that's why:

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

Well I know that these feelings won't end no, no.
They'll just get stronger if I see you again.
Baby I'm tired of being friends.
I wanna know if you feel the same
And could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Don't leave me in doubt.

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.
And baby that's why:

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

I'll take you home real quick
And sit you down on the couch
Pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out.
Baby we can make sweet love.
Then we'll take it nice and slow.
I'm gonna touch you like you've never know before
We're gonna make love all night.

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night.
You make me wanna hold you till the morning light.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.
I know this is a feeling that I just can't fight.
You're the first and last thing on my mind.
You make me wanna love, you make me wanna fall.
You make me wanna surrender my soul.

totally random!

2008-01-29T16:18:00.000+08:00

today, my mood is like totally random..
go DAE, feeling damn sianz, sit there copy examples..
go DAE lab, still copy, but was kinda high,
coz E is for EDDIE! LMAO! jun qi's new name..
go maths, at there depress, din felt like tokin..
nii-san ask me i depress ah, i reply no..
that all.. lolx.. the ppl behind my row damn lame..
say abt me n ying ting.. pls lo! they all also black shirt..
anyhow only.. si bei piss off la.. den mood kept jumping..
go home wanted to study, but totally no mood to la..
my girl, i'm so in love with you, u say wad, usually i listen..
so why isit, you won't listen to what i say de.. i said before,
you don't want to compromise, neither will i..
but i already did alot of times le, even if u din..
really damn sian and tired of it le lo.. Haiz..

*

Random song post-
爱像一阵风吹完它就走
这样的节奏谁都无可奈何
没有你以后我灵魂失控
黑云在降落我被它拖着走
静静悄悄默默地开始入了危险边缘
我的世界已狂风暴雨

爱情来的太快就像龙卷风
离不开暴风却来不及逃
我不能再想我不能再想
我不我不我不能
爱情走得太快就像龙卷风
不能承受我已无处可躲
我不要再想我不要再想
我不我不我不要再想你

不知不觉你已经离开我
不知不觉我跟了这节奏
后知后觉又过了一个秋
后知后觉我该好好生活

NEVER!

2008-01-27T15:15:00.000+08:00

Dear, we are meant to be, i will not let go.
Wont'! i know we belong together,
no one will seperate us, NO ONE.
I have no intention of giving you up,
and if there is a need, i will take you and run.
I won't let anything come between us,
i will wait for you, for sure.
I love you dear..

*

To all parents:
Respect and trust between parent and child is important,
the child respect you, in return you should at least give some respect.
If you don't trust your child, how you expect them to be happy?
If you are forever controlling them,
they can never to learn to depend on themselves.
No one say cannot control, but is give freedom,
bit by bit, slowly at a time.
As if you never been a child before,
as if you never know before how much you wanted freedom.
Is it cause you didn't have it before,
so you deny your child of it too?
please don't be so immature.
Learn to be a proper parent.

ROAR!

2008-01-26T14:40:00.000+08:00

Hey you all! Class AVT 11!! i am so not love sick ok!
Its call being deeply in love ok! ROAR!!
i just think of her a little more,
miss her a little more,
day-dream of her a little more,
look at her picture much much more..
liddat only ma.. liddat also cal love sick meh?
Speaking of sick, nii-san must take care ah..
look so so sick la, face so pale.. make me worry..
today saw dear again, so sorry make you so paiseh..
so many of my frens came with me.. haha!
den u zhao so fast.. bo wait for me de..
Send u to imm den went to work again..
den go home n here i m blogging!
n tats abt it! l0ves dear =)

l0ves x3

2008-01-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

so long bo blog le.. shall blog today! wahhahah!
today woke up at 6 to go find dear.. end up she so zhu..
slp dao 8 plus den wake up.. zao zhi dao i slp longer also..
haha! den jiu slack ard, take pics.. den dar go bugis..
go pray pray.. her o lvl results, not bad la..
promise to give her a treat coz of her result..
but gt no idea wad she wans to eat thou.. haha!
and den, i pon com pro.. WAHAHAHHAHAHA!
cant believe i did tat.. but still got go for mda la..
stupid lecturer think i deaf, as if i dono next week lab test..
oh well.. then went for work after school.. noe smth?
sit there 3 hr 1 cust nia.. den i settle in 10sec.. lmao..
dear ah.. i'm so deeply in love with you now..
rooted so deeply into my heart le.. can't let you go le..
will you promise to stay with me till the end?
i love you..

WOOTS

2008-01-22T14:41:00.000+08:00

Ah.. tiring day.. today went too hyper, use too much energy..
as usual, late for class again.. no nid to say one..
and again, got quiz, and i forgotten bout it..
well.. at least no trouble getting thru the quiz since can use notes..
den after eating, justin say don wan go slack outside class,
then i scold some of them indecisive where they want to go..
then after, i also indecisive, dono wan go library anot..
its so damn funny, during lab, keep watching movie only..
lecturer showing example, all playing ard, poking n tapping each other..
our turn to do? all dono! haha.. tat the funny part la.. hehe..
after which, go maths class, yi jie open door, i walk straight into it..
stupid nii-san keep laughing at me.. and hor, ben and nii-san..
during maths class so funny la.. i took a photo of it!

see their face noe that maths class sianz..haha! today all gt nick names la..
i was called rui-rui(so stupid la).. den nii-san is ying-yang(worst seh)..
at nite went to dinner at revenue house.. JAP FOOD! so nice can..
i ate so much la.. till bloated.. lesson learnt, no 2 mango milkshake at one go..

its too much for me to handle.. but, ITS DAMN NICE CAN! haha!
on the way home, after alight the bus at interchange..
can't believe gt a girl ask for my number.. dono her eyes gt prob or wad..
somemore her fren beside her.. den i just give lo.. hey come on!
i don look old rite? look only like 18 la! n she is 20..
for wad ask my number sia.. don understand ppl nowadays.. lmao..
oh well.. that sums up wad happen today.. hehe.. love dear =p

Words..

2008-01-21T17:38:00.000+08:00

what the point of you telling me if you don't mean it?
then you try finding excuses to cover for it..
just don't say it in the first place..
then there wont be so much trouble..

=p

2008-01-20T16:29:00.000+08:00

today suppose go for red camp open hse, but skipped it..
after that met eddie, den was at bugis.. met dear n her frens..
ate at pasta mania den send dear home..
*
your in this world for alot of reasons, not just those few.
yes we are different, if we try hard enough, i know we will last to the end..
yes, i did say we are not meant to be.. but why let fate control us?
we should control our own fate.. a promise.. i wanna be with you till the end..
i love you too..

我不配

2008-01-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

what i said hit the jack pot right? this is the way it is..
i said what i wanted, the rest is up to you to decide..
you want me, i will be there, if not,
i will just disappear from your sight..
words are nothing more then words if you don't do anything..
you can tell me how much you felt that way,
but the fact is, that not really how you felt..
if you want, go ahead, break my heart,
do whatever you want to it..
break it to a million pieces,
give it to someone else..
i won't feel the pain anymore,
not much left in the mind,
no pain, so suffering,
almost just a blank,
but just plain hatred left..

我不配-
這街上太擁擠太多人有秘密玻璃上有霧氣誰被隱藏起過去
妳臉上的情緒在還原那場雨這巷弄太過彎曲走不回故事裡

這日子不再綠又斑駁了幾句剩下搬空回憶的我在大房子裡
電影院的座椅隔遙遠的距離感情沒有對手戲妳跟自己下棋

還來不及仔仔細細寫下妳的關於描述我如何愛妳妳卻微笑的離我而去

這感覺已經不對我努力在挽回一些些應該體貼的感覺我沒給
妳嘟嘴許的願望很卑微在妥協是我忽略妳不過要人陪

這感覺已經不對我最後才了解一頁頁不忍翻閱的情節妳好累
妳默背為我掉過幾次淚多憔悴而我心碎妳受罪妳的美我不配

09

2008-01-18T14:10:00.000+08:00

if i had wanted, to change the way things are now, there is 3 choice i can take..
i taken my choice.. may not be what i wanted, but i guess it the best of the 3..
running a fever, walked under the rain again.. wonder how sick can i get..
it felt so nice to be walking in the rain.. rain drops keep falling down on me..
the 9 shooting stars, the 1 wish i made.. my wish came true.. 9th gf..
my favorite number, my lucky number, so was your favorite number too..
zeronine.. was this really what i wanted? i got my wish, so am i regretting now?
your mindless zombie? or just your play toy? the one that only belongs to you..
does not matter anymore.. nothing else matters anymore..
it only matters if your happy or not..

爱的正好

2008-01-16T15:14:00.000+08:00

hav i grown up? hav i not?
i don't care anymore..
if i am immature, so be it..
i just need a longer time to understand life..
that all to it.. nth else more..
i won't expect anything more from you..
you have your freedom, i have mine..
like the way things are, even before we met..
will history repeat itself again? we shall see..
Stupid wish, stupid shooting star, stupid me..
可能是久违的甜蜜可能是潮水的来去
把眼泪流成一阵雨能不能够流到你心里
一定是潮水的魔力让海岸也无能为力
就当是生命中的奇迹
改变了天涯海角的距离
可能大雨来得太早(我还不知道)
可是情话说得正好(我还在寻找)
再怎么样寻找
来时路已经找不到
可能缘份来得太早(我还不知道)
可是情话说得正好(我还在寻找)
当我以为再等不到你却突然停靠在我怀抱

Inner self..

2008-01-15T15:33:00.000+08:00

Wad with me nowadays.. losing myself so easily..
its so hard to be in control anymore..
why it just seem i can't control my emotions or actions..
do i really hav 2 of me inside? haiz..

To my girl =/

2008-01-12T18:39:00.000+08:00

Love somehow, just don seem suitable for me..
For the second time i decide to really love someone,
i feel the pain again.. it hurts.. so so much..
why is loving someone so painful..
Maybe i should have stick to what the was..
i thought i would never fall in love again till i met you..
the one i would risk getting hurt again just to be with..
and true enough, really have to get hurt to be with you..
why is it you never really listen to what i say?
or is it that you just cant be bothered?
it may not be a promise, but you know what i was going to do..
and yet you changed the plans, n didn't inform me till i ask?
true, i may not be mum, i cant stop you from going out..
but is it too much to let me know when u will be going out?
where you are when you are outside? or am i being nosey?
is it so hard, to do just something for me, after i done so much for you..
how much i had changed for you.. how much effort i put in..
are you really worth me doing so much for you? i really hope so..
i do love you a lot.. really really a lot.. don't let me down girl..
in the start, you were so afraid that our relationship won't last..
your worried i be playing with you, so much you worried..
but in the end? i m the one that is afraid of this now..
cause i thought you would put in your best, and so i did..
i really did.. i don't know how much longer i can last like this..
i really hope, you would do something, and make me feel,
you are worth me going through so much trouble for,
to change so much for, and the person i can entrust my heart to..
i love you girl..

Kenneth

Whee!

Sweet dreams over.

*zzZ*

some people.

Fine.

hi there.

=.=

Aish

ROAR!

IDIOTIC FLU!

hmm.

Off day!

Haiz.

You're the Queen, but i'm the God Damn King.

I wonder..

One and Only.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!

Life is great ahead!

Change.

>.<

<3

.

6months left.

Year 2009 Resolutions!

Aims!

Year 2009!

Discipline.

Merry Christmas!

Cheerios / Emo-ing

Humans..

=(

=(

Hang in there.

Huat ah!

Cheerios.

GG weeks incoming.

Fallen Angel Risen Devil.

i wish..

Paiseh ah =x

its my life.

A long long day.

Random day..

愛轉角

Song lyrics.

my Pendulum.

When..

Happy Birthday Jenny!

Bored day. & Angry too.

Public holiday MONDAY!

Weird.

Zz

The 5 Fs!

what a day.

GOD DAMN IT LA.

HUNGRY LA

Quotes.

im happy =D

死

Happy la.

CISLY

i hate you.

Aug 26

Holidays are here!

Mango

Happy national day!

Hmm.

Haiz

Booooooooooooooooooooo!

hmm.

o.o

what the...

ZZ

Dance dance dance.

After so long~

4th mth =)

xD

=p

3rd mth!

Why..

zzZ